Hey everyone,

It has been a little while since I have been here. Truth is, life has had a few ups and downs, and so have my emotions. But, I guess that is what life is. I sometimes think about life and the things I have been through, and it makes me really upset. The loss of my beloved father changed everything; changed me. Since his passing, I have felt this emptiness that nothing seems to fill. It was worsened by the abuse from my ex, at a time that I needed the ones I loved the most.

What a lot has changed in the last year. One thing is for sure, and that is I never want to be in the position again, where I give someone the power to ruin my inner peace. I have been trying my best to do the things that help me when I am down. I have been going for walks, the gym, reading and trying to incorporate more yoga. Thinking about everything that has happened in the last year, really makes me upset. But at the same time, it was God’s plan and this was always meant to be my journey.

I can’t really see the end or the plan at the moment. However, one thing is for sure and that is that I am out of the cycle of abuse. I sometimes think about all the things I went through and tolerated, and think I can’t believe I accepted any of that. The thing is, when you have a good heart, you expect others to and unfortunately, that is not always the case. Thank God I am no longer around the people who never wished right for me, who never cared and whose hearts are blackened with envy.

I pray God keeps me far away from these kind of people.

With love,

Amina xo