Fireflies

Hey everyone,

It is a Sunday morning and I have already been up and out in this frosty chilly day. The sun is out so it actually looks so beautiful outside. I have just got home and having a slow morning with a cup of coffee. I have had an incredibly busy few days with a family wedding and I am exhausted. But, I can’t complain- it has been such a nice few days.

Yesterday I was talking to one of my old uni friends and we decided to just meet spontaneously. We live about an hour away from each other, so I jumped in the car and went to see her. We went out for a meal and it was such a lovely evening. She is one of those people in my life, who is a breath of fresh air. Talking to her and spending time with her is better than any therapy session ever. She just understands me and honestly she is such a funny person, that whenever I meet her, I always leave feeling so much better.

She actually said something yesterday, which has been on my mind since. She said about me that ‘you always seem to let go of the ones you love.’ When she said that, it kind of stopped me in my tracks. She is right, I do. And it was a very honest, intelligent observation. One that I do not think I had even realised myself.

However, when you truly love someone, you should let them go. Love should not be about possession, and that is what a lot of people do not understand. Naturally, as human beings when we love someone or something, we want it to be close and near to us and we feel attachment. Of course, we do. However, nothing in life is ours and on that theory, if you truly love someone, then love should come without conditions and without expectations. I do not love less, depending on external factors. When love is pure, it is not consuming, it is light and free-ing. It should not hold someone back. It should empower someone.

It is an odd thing isn’t it. Letting go? But this year, I choose to consciously let go.

With all my love,

Amina xo

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