Hey everyone,

I am actually feeling so upset right now, and I can’t even explain why really. Well I know why, of course I know why. I miss my late father so so so much. Grief is one of those incredibly understated emotions. As soon as you think you are doing okay, it comes creeping right back. I have been trying to keep strong and carry on for myself and for my loved ones, especially my mom.

But every now and then, life shows me a cruel twist which takes me right back. Right back to the moment when I lost my everything, when I lost my beloved father. I think those who have not lost a parent cannot truly understand what it feels like. It is the most gut wrenching feeling ever. It was the most gut wrenching feeling, as I held my father’s hand, almost a year ago now, and watch the blood drain from his face.

This weather is really matching my mood right now- torrential downpour! Haha.. trust me to try make light of a situation. I really do have a renewed empathy now for those who are grieving loss. It really is hard to put into words, how difficult it is to carry on with life, doing mundane tasks and things that need doing when at the same time, your whole world has fallen apart.

I have always felt having a sensitive heart has been my downfall, and it probably has in a lot of situations. I feel emotions very deeply, and that is not for everyone. However, it is also my superpower. I can feel people’s pain and I really think this has helped me in my role of a doctor, and my compassion and empathy when treating patients.

Anyway, hope you are enjoying your Saturday- hopefully a less cold and wet one, than here in Yorkshire!

With love,

Amina xo