Hey everyone,

Just thought I would check in with myself. I am slowly recovering. Honestly this time yesterday, even lifting a finger seemed like a lot of effort. I have no idea what I caught and how- but it was horrible. I guess working in healthcare and patients coming in with viruses doesn’t help!

I always thought I had a very good immune system. I am almost annoyed at myself for getting so unwell. It is an indication I have not been prioritising myself. Life has gotten very busy and stressful these last few months and I think I need to remember to be a little kinder to myself.

How we talk to ourselves and what we say to ourselves really matters. I am really bad at this. When I sometimes think about the way I second guess myself and put myself down- I would never dream of talking to any of my loved ones like that! It is ironic how we forget that the way we talk to ourselves and what we tell ourself actually has a profound impact on us- and in fact on those around us.

This time last year, my father had just been discharged from hospital, and I was trying to live and comprehend a new normal in my brain where I was trying to navigate being a full time GP, a wife in a not so happy marriage and also face this very shocking new reality that my dad was dying slowly from an incurable cancer and I may have to see him wither away with the effects of cancer and chemotherapy.

How God had other plans though…

And that’s the thing. There is always a plan, a bigger plan that we cannot see right now.

So hang in there, just like I am trying to do most days.

With love,

Amina xo