Hey everyone,

A very early good morning from me at 4.43am. My sleep routine has been a bit haywire recently but last night I actually managed to have a restful night- probably because I was so tired from the day that my body just switched off as soon as I hit the bed- which is not normal for me!

I was thinking about this page whilst I was doing some household chores earlier and I thought my last few posts have been quite raw and triggering; but also quite freeing to put down into words some of my feelings and emotions that I had to suppress over the last few years. However, that is only a small chapter of my life and I can not let it define me- if I do let the chapter of my marriage define me, then it is literally letting my ex win!

My late father was a real cheerleader of mine. Often, you do not understand certain things until it is too late and the moment has passed. Hindsight is a beautiful thing, and after my father’s passing so many of the words he spoke to me as a child, often come back to me. Back then, my response usually used to be ‘Pappa you can not say that!’ often mortified about what he said- when in fact, he just said out loud what used to be on everyone’s mind. Now, thinking back to it, my father had a pure heart, and he said what was on his mind, without any malice. I think I have acquired this trait from him.

I want this page of mine, to be honest and truthful to my authentic self. Hence, I was thinking although my last few posts have been quite raw, almost like my inner diary and internal dialogue, I also have many interests and events that happen during my day that I have written down that I need to share. It is just sometimes difficult to post during a busy day.

Just like anyone who knows me would agree, I always have so much to say, and I never stop talking (most of the time, unless I am very upset, stressed or down) and the situation with this page is something like that. However, I am enjoying doing something different so here goes- we shall see how this develops!

I hope everyone has a good Friday and happy weekend!!

With love,

Amina x