Hey everyone,
It is 05.23am here and I have woken up, showered and got dressed. I have an early start today but I woke up in a sweat from a nightmare about my ex and the abuse I suffered in my marriage. I wish I could say it was just a nightmare, and not a flashback of the reality I used to live.
Having suffered abuse from someone that I thought I would be spending the rest of my life with and building a family with, is really a difficult concept to get your head around. On one side, you used to love and care for them deeply and that does not just vanish in a second. But the day, the verbal abuse changed into physical abuse, a few years ago; although the love did not disappear that day, everything changed. I just could not see him in the same light again. For years, I tried to convince myself that the abuse, disrespect, verbal and physical abuse was not him, and it was a product of the situation. However, when I think about it as if I was talking to a patient, then domestic abuse is not right in any situation!
On that note, let’s take a deep breath and reset. Although, that is how the morning has started, it is a new day. It is still dark outside and I am ahead of time for the morning and the day which is a positive! Never thought I would be a morning person, and also trying to find silver linings!
I am going to grab a herbal tea and sit with a book for a while and practice mindfulness. Hopefully that will help calm my nervous system. I actually am looking forward to the work day today- let’s hope I am not eating my words later on!
I hope you all have a productive day and don’t forget to smile- it costs nothing!
With love,
Amina xo
Dr Amina Ravat 
sorry for what you’ve had to go through. please give yourself the time to heal and maybe go out and just have new experiences or do something you’ve never done. that’s what i did, when i went through something similar. 🙂
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Thank you very much for your kind words. I hope you are also okay. I am very bad at giving myself time- they say doctors make the worst patients and now I understand why! However the last few weeks I have been trying to slow down and take more time for myself, to do the things I have always wanted to do but not had time to with the pressures of life and work! Again, thank you for leaving me a comment and making me smile during my busy work day 🙂
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well, doctors work really hard, so i guess i understand. and working in general especially when you are going through something could be quite beneficial. it helps you focus your energy on what matters and just keeps you from thinking about things that just don’t matter anymore.
i did the same on my off days. tried a few book clubs, support groups, horse riding and just whatever was available. made a few friends, had a good laugh; just had fun :))
and i hope you smile moree and often; not just today 🙂
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Yes I agree, it is hard whatever job you do but I guess sometimes it helps to compartmentalise and distract yourself. I just need to keep focusing my energy like you said on things that matter to me and bring me happiness!
I have tried doing the same. I finally have more time to focus on myself and have started reading more and trying new things and also things I used to love as a child such as stitching and knitting. Hopefully, a day at a time!
By the way, you are the first to comment on my blog so thank you! It makes me feel better that someone out there can relate and there is hope that one day things might get that little bit better. 🥲
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that’s greatt. i also tried crocheting but it’s just not my cup of tea. i’m just not that patient to just sit and do thatt and don’t get me started on the different knotss that you’ve to learnnnn lol.
and i am glad, i stumbled upon you amidst the many blogs here. it takes courage to be this vulnerable and raw. your writing has a gentle tone to it.
and ofcourse, they will. everything gets better, with timee. whatever it was; it’s over now. you’re out of itt and noww it’ll all be happy happyyy. 😁
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Oh yes crocheting is a whole new world. You should try cross-stitching if you haven’t already?
That is a very kind thing to say about my writing- thank you 🙂
I hope you’re well and apologies for the late reply back- I must have missed your comment! 🙂
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that’s fine! hope you have been well!
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I have thank you, hope you are well also!
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