Hey everyone,

It has been a while since I have written anything from the heart. The last few weeks have been very difficult for me mentally. I am living through a heartbreak; not only of the loss of my father but of a different kind. The heartbreak of betrayal from someone I thought would be my protector for life. It turns out words, are just words sometimes.

I think one of the key differences I have realised over time is that I do things from the heart, or with all my heart and soul. That can be very intense at times. However, when I love, I love with all my heart. With every fibre of my being. The same is true when I am hurt too. It is both a blessing and a curse to love so deeply.

Unconditionally

When I love, I do so unconditionally. I accept whatever is in front of me. I do not try to change or mould. I simply see all parts and I love the good, the bad and all the cracks of someone, without any conditions. It was my mistake to think that although I did this for someone, and they said the same for me, it was never without conditions. It has taken me years to realise this, truly realise it. Under all the lies and the deceit and betrayal.

There is always more than meets the eye, and people have many layers. I guess my eyes have finally been opened in the most devastating way possible. Better late than never, right..?

With all my love,

Amina x